The Decision

[Svo'k Lynd]

*The nineteen year old picked himself up off the floor of the apartment, they were gone. All of them. All that was left was him in this apartment, again. His red eyes narrowed and he brought his hand up to wipe the tears away from his cheeks. He was taking deeper breaths, each one stabbing at him as the pain of reality permeated his soul. The young Sith shook his head and stormed out of the apartment, sending a mighty force push towards the kitchen cabinents shattering dishes as he left.

His legs carried him quickly through the halls of the Council of Knowledge his black cloak fluttering behind him, he made his way down the flights of stairs and burst out into The Courtyard. The Courtyard, this was a place that held so many memories for him, good and bad, his red eyes glowed as he exited the courtyard and moved towards the cliffs overlooking Kadarra beach. He came to the edge and sat down, his red eyes scanned the horizon as the waves crashed onto the shore. He took a deep breath and sighed audibly.*

"F****ing Makhai, I'm going to kill him."

*Svo'k looked down at the lightsaber hanging from his belt, Makhai was right. What kind of SIthw as he!? All he did was whine and complain, oh and do drugs. Worthless. Everything was worthless. What had all of this been for? He was nineteen. Nineteen and a father to how many?? He closed his eyes and bit his lip rolling his lip ring with his tongue. What was he doing?

He paused again and took his lightsaber from his belt.It's hilt shined in the sun of Naboo and cast it's reflection on his Sith tatooed hands. His red eyes stared into the lightsaber and he ignited the red blad. It sprung to life with the typical sinister his that a Sith weapon would. The vibrant red blade stared back at him in an almost mocking manner.*

"F***!!! YOU!!"

*He craned his neck back and kileld the blade. He raised his left hand and ran his read and black fingers through his hair, his heart was pounding.*

"You could do it."

*Another moment passed and the young Sith fixed his red eyes on the hilt again.*

"No one is here to stop you. No Kaytren, no Arik."

"*He rolled his tongue over his lip ring again and a weight in his chest took root, it sent a numbing tingling feeling throughout his body.*

"Come on. Just a flick of the wrist and that's it. DO IT!"

*Svo'k took the emitter and placed it against his right temple, sweat and tears visible on his face.*

"You won't feel it, DO IT YOU WORTHLESS F****ING COWARD!!!"

*His thumb lightly touched the ingition slightly moving the button but not completely depressing it. His hands trembled and the emitter trembled against his head, his heart rate increasing, it felt as if it was going to jump out of his chest at any moment.*

"SON OF!!!!!!!! COWARD!!! KRIFF!!!!!!!"

*Svo'k took the hilt and threw it as far away as he could, he stood up to turn on his heel but collapsed to his knees in the process.*

"Damn you KIRA, DAMN ARIK!"

*He shook his head and pounded the ground, staying there for a long moment. His aura was confused, nothing made sense anymore, he had to wait for something but he wasn't sure what. Something had to present itself....something had better present itself.*